After my 9-10 subject I felt uneasy and went home. As if my world is spinning and I can't fully feel my the whole surroundings. I started to sleep at 10:30 am and I woke up at almost 5pm! I was delirious during my sleep. I dreamed about some weird movie that I've never seen. I dreamed about her...I don't know why, but I was happy on that dream...enough of that...I was awaken by my mother, ehich came from the hospital, and told me a very very sad news. My aunt might die after 2 weeks as the doctor told her. Shit! What a way of waklng me up. Her cancer became malignant and infected her whole system. No more good blood is flowing on her system, and after 2 weeks she might die...

I finally did what I should have done a long time ago...talk to her. As I gather all my courage and strength, I finally called her house. We talk a while, just almost 5 mins. but to me it's eternity. After that, I thought it's finally over...but I was wrong. I read her latest online journal entry and some statement there are obviously for me..She's still mad at something, something that I did not do. I never trusted that guy..I never will. Even though he told me lots and lots of things about the two of you my loyalty still belongs to you. I know I shouldn't be involve between you two, I shouldn't react on that issue, and I shouldn't have even talked to him. But I guess what ever I say now is useless. Every bit of word I say isn't credible to you anymore. I won't blame you for that. All I can say..even if you don't believe me at all...I loved you more than you'd ever known

12:01 am September 12,2004. I waited for my friends to text me, to greet me a happy birthday. It's been a tradition ever since. 01:04 am. Tin texted me and I thank her for that. 03:00 am. Nobody's texting anymore, so I slept to prepare for tomorrow's mass. 07:30 am. I recieved a text message from Ma'am Gem, Ma'am Rap and Ralph. and I thank them for that. I went down and my mom and sis greeted me a happy birthday. My sis gave me a present..it was a Utada Hikaru Deep River album. i'm so happy for that. We attended mass and went back home to eat kare-kare. 11:29 am. Maoi texted me and I thank her for that. I thought she have forgotten my birthday, but I'm glad she remembered. Thank You Maoi. I connected myself to the internet and logged on into Yahoo Messenger. An offline message pop out. It was Joyce. I cried, because I thought she had also forgotten that it's my birthday. I asked her why she didn't text me. She "reminded" me that she has no mobile phone anymore. Stupid me . My friends from the FADE forum greeted me as well. 14:00 pm. I texted my friends if they could come to my house, for I prepared a little celebration party. Tin replied that she can't leave Rina alone at her house. That's okay I understand. Mike told me that he's too tired to come. That's okay. Maoi and her mom were at Glorietta 4. That's okay. Joyce and her family were somewhere in Pampanga. That's okay. Only Tristan, Mon and Archie attended my "banquet" and we had a wonderful time. We watched the movie Naked Weapon on DVD and teased Archie for being "too young" to watch an R-18 movie. We ate again after the movie and the three decided that it's already late nd bid farewell. 22:45 pm. Dad called and greeted me a happy birthday. I missed him so much..
23:59 pm. I finally decided that she wouldn't text anymore..I know she's still mad at me...12:03 am September 13, 2004. I texted Mam Rap, It's her birthday this time